my brother is an angel. never on earth has there been 19 years that were lived with more passion

i'm at home in tulsa

Currently Reading The Picture of Dorian Gray By Oscar Wilde see related

some friends at a summer house in the peloponesse/ sunio and temple of posidon

florence's gorgeous renaissance church things/ me and timos in florence

me posing as a tourist in venice/ gothic venetian architecture in piazza (we saw david gilmore of pink floyd play here!)

i don't really want to say this because it sounds so fake, but i had the most incredible summer of my life. beauty found me the one time of my life i wasn't searching for it. it found me and surprised me, blew my mind, and changed me into a different person, or maybe just allowed me to pull my insides out. i went to a lot of great places. all over italy...venice is the most beautiful city in the world, the french riviera with cold crystal blue sea and kick-ass croisants, corfu...an island where i spent 3 weeks with friends at a village house in the forests covered mountains and going to the beach everyday, nafplio living on the beach with musicians at the same friend's other house. for the first time in my life i was finally able to live each day for all its worth without a thought of the future and god what a beautiful state of mind that is. and even though all these places and experiences were so adventurous for me, like a dream, the real thing that has made me more alive than ever before, more content, happier, wiser, more scared, insecure, and yet confident, which has let me get to know myself and not be afraid of all the really scary shit i hide inside...is the person i was with, timos. the only thing more i'll say is that i'm in love and it's been really good. and also (but i decided this before i met timos) i am staying another year here in greece to finish my degree. i love it here. i love europe. i have more to see. i miss vancouver, eugene, tulsa a bit, my friends very much, maybe i'll try to come home for christmas.  i really envy those people who are able to feel content, because it has always been such a struggle for me and i've honestly never felt content before in my entire life until this summer and it is the best feeling for me in the world, maybe cause it's a new one. i've always thought life had to be a story with incredible tales and exciting adventure, but i realize it can also be slow, mellow, unmoving, resting and peaceful. and i think this comes when you're ok on the inside.

Currently Listening Collected By Massive Attack see related

sooo whats up. i like writing on xanga and i wish it weren't such a hassle to spend time online, but i have to walk up to school like a mile and wait for a computer and load my pictures. but whatever. right now my life is all about writing philosophy papers and i almost can't take it anymore. i'll be done with classes in a month. lately i've been chillin with friends. my birthday was last week and we all went out to my favorite place and to akrotiri club on the sea...it had a pool and everything and we got the club for free. ummm the 2 weeks before that i went to rome with my roommate and looooved. been making it to class, and yoga. been going to the beach and swimming, getting a tan. my mom came to visit and i took her to santorini and meteora. and that's about it for the big picture of things.

meteora again:

santorini again: went swimming here and ate fish at a taverna with mom

now for rome, me and roomie in front of pantheon:

the pantheon:

colluseam:

the treve fountain:

pompei (hehe):

me in pomepi: i fell down a very steep hill because i was trying so see if i could run all the way day. i thought i broke my leg. but don't worry, i didn't

me and dominike (roomie) and brawnwin, who provided a home for us while we were in rome, having a night out:

and a random fountain that i thought was beautiful:

back in greece, my friend doing a backflip skiing:

where we ski (parnassos):

my blue hair from a while ago. it's turned white now: and as if there wern't enough pics already, a zoolander pic from last november that my friend developed that turned out very funny:

there is no way i'm THAT tall. maybe i'm sitting/standing on something.

it has been a good semester, but i'm tired. i am going to read the origin of species now before my 5oclock starts.

Currently Listening What Else Is There? By Röyksopp see related

this is probably the only time i will do something like this. taken from my friend laurie martin

9 lasts:
Last dollar spent: at the new york airport in august
Last cigarette: about 30 mins ago
Last beverage: a latte, also 30 mins ago
Last movie: last night, La Mala Education
Last phone call: dominike, my roomie
Last Song Sang: Sleeping to Dream about You, Jason Mraz
Last bubble bath: few nights ago
Last time you cried: last week. emotion city...i was walking past some fallen flowers on the ground and the sight made me cry
Last thing you ate: a sandwich

8 have you evers.
Have you ever dated a best friend: no
Have you ever skinny dipped: of course
Have you ever kissed somebody and regretted it? yes
Have you ever lost someone you loved: yes
Have you ever been dumped: no, actually
Have you ever been drunk and threw up: twice
Have you ever ran away: i ran away and hid in a tree in the neighborhood. my mom checked there and found me and then spanked me

7 states you've been to.
i am changing this to countries:
1. Greece
2. Mexico
3. Canada
4. Bolivia
5. Peru
6. Switzerland
7. Italy

6 things you've done today:
1. woke up my friend elena who was sleeping next to me by farting..haha
2. had coffee with her
3. ran around the track
4. swam laps
5. sat in the sauna with my roommate
6. had a latte at (don΄t hate me) starbucks and read my book outside on the balcony

5 of your favorite things in no order.
1. being allowed to satisfy curiosity (that is very vague...eg. seeing pompeii(which i haven΄t done yet))
2. funky clothes
3. skiing down a beautiful mountain on a sunny day
4. spontaneously crying to music
5. being in love

4 people you can tell [almost] anything to in no order..
1. Roommate
2. my journal
3.
4.

3 things that make you smile.
1. swimming in the sea
2. the sunset
3. feeling free

2 things you want to do before you die.
1. spend a couple years living on a sailboat, maybe in polynesia, with someone i am in love with
2. have loved someone with all my heart

1 thing that you cannot live without
1. love

and since i have not taken pictures recently, here is one from new years that my friend emailed me:

Love is the most noble form of insanity--Miss Sixty

Currently Listening When I Woke By Rusted Root see related

hi, hi!! this feels like the longest winter break ever and it is only letting me indulge in my already over-exceeding laziness. but i have had so much fun and my friend maddie was here for a few weeks and so i had a travelling buddy. we went to a few places in greece that i had never been before. my new favorite place on earth is meteora, in northern greece with monasteries built on top of boulders in the mountains. we also went to delphi, which is a very mystical place of ruins...and it was raining (a beautiful warm rain) a bit and the magic was tangible (tangible for me, because i am weird like that). and we went to crete for the first time where we felt an earthquake for the first time. it is a beautiful area, with the ancient minoan palaces (even though they were incorrectly restored in concrete by stupid sir arthur evans) and a very old city, hania, with narrow walkways and decaying buildings. not ΄decaying΄ but ΄lived-in΄, you know? like from quite a time ago when buildings were built with love and art. very fun time with maddie. and last weekend i went skiing in greece for the first time with a guy friend. it was a blizzard the whole time and the mountain didn΄t compare to like whistler or anything, but it was beautiful. and at night we went out and drank one of my favorite drinks, hot raki with honey, called rakomelo. and since then i have been a lazy bum and not much else, just going out with friends and looking for new underground cafes and bars to go to. it is cool that my favorite place in all of athens is the closest to my home...it is very hippie and plays awesome music (with a live dj of course) but is small and crowded and intimate and has hooka for only 5 euros and mulled red wine with cinnemon. it΄s called play; when maddie was here, i think i took her there like 100 times.        i can΄t check out library books since i am not enrolled in classes for the january term...so many times i listen to music while i watch greek tv on mute; a new hobby for boredom. i need to find a job at a place that doesn΄t ask for papers. and most likely i will be goin up to macedonia and kosovo for a while with my friend cloee before spring semester. but if i could be anywhere right now, it would be in pakistan...i can΄t stand not being there. i am honestly thinking about going to help with earthquake relief in the highest areas where all the kids are suffereing. my heart breaks whenever i see it on cnn. i don΄t know what i would do to get there, but i am seeing. other than that, i am waiting for it to be warm again here so i can sleep on the roof and on the beach, and swim in the sea again. it΄s snowing today in athens. some pics:

me and maddie in front of the acropolis:

 me, maddie at a brazillian club

 with sarit and cloee

the tholos at delphi:

temple of apollo in delphi: (the speck at the top is grass on the lens, not a ufo or anything)

one of the monasteries at meteora

iraklion in crete:

hania in crete, maddie doing what she does best:

and at the minoan palace of knosos, we snuck into a roped-off area:

and, walking through the market with homer and cloee

and i almost forgot to say that my roommate and i adopted a dog off the street. her name is lily and she looks like a deer. yasas, filakia